Let the Holiday Fun Begin!

It's that time of year! Time for holiday fun! This year I decided to make tags! This one is not quite done. I have yet to attach a bow because the dots are still drying on his name. What projects are you looking forward to?

This was made using Cuttin' Up and the Cricut Create (yep, I'm still using the baby bug). I cut the dollar bill using Cartoon Shadow mode and fit to page, then I cut a slightly smaller in white. I used my Fiskar's rotatry trimmer to trim the "ribbon" from the same paper I cut his name from. I used the regular font for his name and then cut it at about 3 inches (I think). I attached them all using Tacky Glue and then red stickles for the dots.

Have fun!

Let the Holiday Fun Begin!

It's that time of year! Time for holiday fun! This year I decided to make tags! This one is not quite done. I have yet to attach a bow because the dots are still drying on his name. What projects are you looking forward to?

This was made using Cuttin' Up and the Cricut Create (yep, I'm still using the baby bug). I cut the dollar bill using Cartoon Shadow mode and fit to page, then I cut a slightly smaller in white. I used my Fiskar's rotatry trimmer to trim the "ribbon" from the same paper I cut his name from. I used the regular font for his name and then cut it at about 3 inches (I think). I attached them all using Tacky Glue and then red stickles for the dots.

Have fun!

Made for MORE!!!!

On a daily basis, no matter if we are believers or not, we face decisions and often times find ourselves wondering what we were made for.  This is where self doubt and depression enter in.  It is sad to see so many around me going through this very thing.

Over the last week, I, myself have pondered what I was made for.  I realized that I had made it through college and done great, but I didn't feel like I had accomplished much because I still have my national exam to take.  I allowed the enemy to get in and plant that seed of self doubt.

I hadn't gone walking, let alone had time alone with the Lord in a while because I allowed life to get in the way.  It was something I am not happy about, but it happened.  So this morning I went on a walk and had worship time with the Lord at the same time.  On my walk, He revealed a few things to me.

1.  YOU WERE MADE FOR MORE THAN ORDINARY-- As I began my walk, I hadn't even gotten 1 lap around my neighborhood before the Lord had begun speaking to me.  He said, "you were made for more!  You were made to thrive!"  Right after hearing this, a song came on to confirm what the Lord was saying.

 I made you flourish like a plant of the field. And you grew up and became tall and arrived at full adornment. Ezekiel 16:7a.

Here in this worn and weary land
Where many a dream has died

Like a tree planted by the water
We never will run dry

So living water flowing through
God we thirst for more of You
Fill our hearts and flood our souls
With one desire

Just to know You and yo make You known
We lift Your name on High
Shine like the sun made darkness run and hide
We know we were made for so much more
Than ordinary lives
It's time for us to more than just survive
We were made to thrive

Woah
Woah

Into Your word we're digging deep
To know our Father's heart

Into the world we're reaching out
To show them who You are

So living water flowing through
God we thirst for more of You
Fill our hearts and flood our souls
With one desire

Just to know You and to make You known
We lift Your name on High
Shine like the sun made darkness run and hide
We know we were made for so much more
Than ordinary lives
It's time for us to more than just survive
We were made to thrive

Joy unspeakable, faith unsinkable,
Love unstoppable, anything is possible
Joy unspeakable, faith unsinkable,
Love unstoppable, anything is possible
Joy unspeakable, faith unsinkable,
Love unstoppable, anything is possible
Joy unspeakable, faith unsinkable,
Love unstoppable, anything is possible

Just to know You and to make You known
We lift Your name on High
Shine like the sun made darkness run and hide
We know we were made for so much more
Than ordinary lives
It's time for us to more than just survive
We were made to thrive
Hey!

Woah
Woah

Woah
Woah

We were made to thrive

The lesson I take away from this is that the ordinary life that has me so frustrated is just a stepping point and the Lord has so much more for me!  It is time for me to THRIVE IN JESUS CHRIST! 

2.  THIS IS NOT WHERE YOU BELONG-- As I got about 1/2 way around the second lap, another song came on where the Lord used the lyrics to remind me that I am not where I belong and that this home is just temporary.  You may know this song, but if not, check it out on youtube.  It is called Where I belong and is sung by Building 429.  In our lives, we each go through seasons, and I went over that scripture the last blog entry, but what is interesting is that there are times for harvest, it is almost time for the Lord to harvest the work he is doing in us all, and he is showing that he is almost ready for the next season in my family's life.  

3.  HEALING BEGINS IN YOU!-- Last lap around, the Lord continued speaking to me.  I got the feeling that he wanted me to know that the healing begins within me.  A song that I had not heard before came on.  While this is not the song, it does have the same basic meaning.  I have not been able to find the name of that song yet, but I know that in due time I will.  



As I close, Please listen to the video up there You will be glad you did.  It's an amazing song and remember, when you are broken, the healing begins!  

Seasons in our lives

"There is a time for everything,
     and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace."  Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

Over the years, at certain times of my life, the Lord brings this passage to the forefront of my mind.  He has done that once again.  Having recently finished my Associate's Degree, the Lord is starting to stir in me once again.  He is telling me that there is a time for everything.  I just feel like everything that is happening in my life is happening for a reason.  It is amazing really how He reveals these things to us in the perfect timing. 

I say all of this to say that while I am in the current time the Lord has me in, I will bless his Holy name because he is blessing me with my current situation and he is working this blessing in order to bless me even more in the future. 

Over the last two years, the Lord has given me the opportunity to pursue my college education, provided finances in order for me to do that.  He has provided work for my husband and even brought him home at the perfect timing giving him another avenue for work right after bringing him home.  Brought us all full circle from moving us to North Carolina and back to Florida. 

Speaking of that move, many have been critical of our move back to Florida.  They do not understand that we made that move because the Lord showed us that we were not going to be able to financially do it and because he had to give us that opportunity in order to get my husband back home.  It was becoming too much on our family for him to be out of town like he was so the Lord listened to our prayers and brought him home for us.  This really  has been a huge blessing for all of us! 

So, what do we do now?  We listen to the Lord, find a home church here on the Island, and start attending.  We continue blessing others and praising the lord for what he has done, what he is doing, and what he will do for our family in the future.  I study and take the RHIT exam this spring.  Then I follow the Lord's guidance with where I apply and secure employment.  After which we continue seeking the Lord and find our own home.

I know this seems like a lot, but in the Lord's timing, and in the perfect season of our lives, all things will come together.

 ^"He said to them: 'It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority. ⁸ But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.'"  Acts 1:7

I leave you today with this verse.  It is not for us to know what the Lord is doing in our lives until that time when he so chooses to reveal it to us.  Keeping in mind that everything going on in our lives has to go through the hands of the Father before it can happen.  The Lord knows what he is doing and he knows how much you can handle.  Keep praising the Lord and you will keep being blessed!  

Why should we study the Bible? Part 1 of 5

Good morning!  

As I sit here and prep to do my Bible studies, I thought it would only be fitting to study why we study this book in the first place.  I mean, really, aren't there other books we could be studying?  Why study a book that was written so many years ago?  Does it actually help us?  In this series, I hope to touch on why we study this great book.  

So, Why do we study the bible?  There are 5 main reasons we study this great book.  I will cover one each day, but they all are:  for teaching, reproof, correction, training in righteousness, and for every good work.  

Today, let's touch on the teaching part of this study.  

As sinners, we are all ignorant of God's will.  So let's break that down a little bit.  Did she just call me ignorant, you  may be asking, so let's see what exactly that means.  Ignorant is defined as lacking knowledge or awareness in general.  When I see this definition, I automatically think, it means having not been taught.  Therefore, the Bible should be read in order to gain that knowledge we currently lack.  

Some verses that can help us to see what I mean are:

there is no one who understands;
    there is no one who seeks God.-- Romans 3:11

Let's touch on the first part of this verse, "there is no one who understands;"  this signifies ignorance in general, not knowing.  If we don't understand something, don't we have to be taught?  Who better a teacher than Jesus Christ and his disciples?  

The Lord looks down from heaven
    on all mankind
to see if there are any who understand,
    any who seek God.-- Psalm 14:2

Again, in the second part of this verse, we see that the Lord is looking for those who understand, those who are seeking Him.  So, let's look at ways we can seek his face... First, I think of prayer.  Pray to God.  Talk go Him.  Sob to Him when you need to.  Then Praise and Worship.  This comes in many forms.  Just being thankful for all He has done, will do, is doing in your life.  Singing praises to him.  And finally, reading His word.  Reading the bible is a great way to seek the Lord.  In these readings, the Lord will reveal things he wants you to know about.  Reading the word is one way you can hear from the Lord.  
He writes the same way in all his letters, speaking in them of these matters. His letters contain some things that are hard to understand, which ignorant and unstablepeople distort, as they do the other Scriptures, to their own destruction.-- 2 Peter 3:16

Are we understanding all the Lord has for us?  Or are we distorting His word to what we think we want to hear?  This is a huge indication that we do not understand the Word of God.  The best way we can come to understand it, is to study the word on a regular basis.  

Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a worker who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth.-- 2 Timothy 2:15

Finally, we see that we are to Do our best!  That's it.  That's all God asks for is our best.  Are you doing your best to present yourself?  Are you a worker?  Are you unashamed?  Do you correctly handle the word of truth?  These are all things we should look at as we study the word of God.  From the word of God we learn. We are taught.  

In closing, what areas could you be working on in order to become wiser?  I know that I need to discipline myself to get in the word Daily.  

Father God, 

Help me to become more disciplined to reading your word daily.  Amen. 

Day of Rest

What is a day of rest for you?  For me, I kind of feel like I do not ever get a full day of rest.  I set my intentions on resting for a day, but then I find that this needs my attention or that needs my attention, so my day of rest gets tossed out with the dish water, so I thought it would be a great time to really research what a day of rest means. 

In the secular world, we equate the day of rest with a day of being lazy.  Laying around on the couch all day watching tv.  That is the worldly way to look at the day of rest.  But, what is the spiritual way to look at the day of rest?  Many times we don't really divide up what exactly it means.  It does not mean doing nothing.  On the contrary, it means a day of worship. 

Knowing now that a day of rest means a day of worship, I thought it would be appropriate to look at a passage from the Old Testament.  In Exodus 20:8, the Lord says, "Remember the sabbath day, by keeping it holy."  so as we chew on this, here are a couple of definitions that are appropriate:

sabbath-- the seventh day of the week observed from Friday evening to Saturday evening as a day of rest and worship by Jews and some Christians; Sunday observed among Christians as a day of rest and worship;

a time of rest.  

 

holy--connected to a god or a religion; religious and morally good

 

So from that I pull that the seventh day of the week, we are to worship, rest, and keep connected to the Lord, practicing morally good behavior.  This has me thinking at this point, so what day of the week should my sabbath be?  The Lord did not say that Sunday has to be the day that we all practice the Sabbath, but he said the 7th day.  So my next question to you would be, what is the one day a week you can devote to the Lord?  It may be that you can devote Tuesdays to the Lord, then I would recommend doing that.  

 

Now, keeping in mind that you are worshipping, does this mean that you cannot do dishes, or feed your family, no it doesn't.  You can pray and whorship to the Lord while doing those activities.  In my opinion it means that we should unplug from the world and plug into the Lord.  Go off of social media for a day.  Plug into the Lord.  Start your day with prayer, praise and worship, dig into the word of the Lord (also known as the Bible), continue worshipping and praying as your day goes on.  End your day with more prayer and worship.  Really connect with the Lord.  If you feel that you are not knowing what to say to the Lord, perhaps he is telling you to be still.  

 

Psalm 46:10 says, "He says, 'Be still and know that I am God; I will be exhalted among the nations, I will be exhalted among the earth.'"

 

There is time for talking to him, and we all are really good at asking for what we want, but are we good at asking for what HE wants for us?  I know this is one area that I am not good in right now.  We are a needy world, and he wants to give us what He has for us.  Then there are times when we must listen because he has something for us.  He will speak to us in many ways, and that's all for another post, but just know that there are times when you must be still and listen for that voice of the Lord.  

 

Blessings!  

Have Faith like a mustard seed...

As I sit here really mulling over what the 5 letter word means, I can't help but thank God for allowing me to have FAITH!  So what does that mean?

Faith by definition is strong belief or trust in someone or something; belief in the existence of God; strong religious feelings or beliefs; a system of religious beliefs; allegiance to duty or a person; fidelity to one's promises; sincerity of intentions; belief and trust in and loyalty to God; belief in the traditional doctrines of a religion; firm belief in something for which there is no proof;  complete trust; something that is believed especially with strong conviction; especially,  a system of religious beliefs; without question


What exactly does this mean?  Well in plain english, Faith is believing without seeing.  It's the belief in something without knowing the steps to get there.  For example, the pantry is almost bare, you have no money for 5 more days, you know SOMETHING will provide, but what?  How will that food stretch.  Fast forward, it's the night before pay day and you still have enough food for 2 more meals.  How did that happen?  THE LORD provided! 


As we get closer to our move, I'm finding that the Lord is testing our faith daily.  We have to learn to have faith that he will get us there in the right home in HIS timing.  I know he will provide all provisions to get us there.  I just have to be patient and have faith that He will deliver.  I have also done a lot of looking back over the last several years.  When I thought I was having faith, I feel now in hindsight that I was questioning his ability to provide for us.  This is a big thing, we must learn to trust in him fully and have faith and things will turn out. 

The verse for the day:  Luke 17:6-- "He replied, "If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, 'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it will obey you."

As you can see, if you have just a tiny bit of faith, you can and will do great things!  Praise the Lord!

Who Am I?

As I continue reading "The Search For Significance"  by Robert S. McGee, I am finding that every time I sit down to read a little bit of it, something really sticks out at me and I feel the need to write it down, hilight it, chew on it, etc.  Today I want to share a few things that I not only read in the book, but some thoughts that have come to mind, as well as something that was posted on one of my pastor's facebook profiles.

First, know that God loves you, yes you!  So much that he sent his only son to die for you on the cross!  He loves us that much!  Wow isn't that crazy?  Nope, it's how God works.  He created you in his image and he wants you to be you, not someone else.

So, in the book, I have learned some of the bad habits that I have had a history of doing.  Some of those things stemmed from my childhood.  I came from a bad situation, and one day I will open up and post my testimony, but that is another post for another day.  What I want to touch on today is that the things that happen in our childhood can, and do carry over into adulthood.  I am living proof of that.  Due to my childhood, I never felt like I belonged, I always felt like I wasn't good enough, I have very low self esteem.  The list goes on.

What this book is teaching me is that I am made perfect.  No, I will not say "in the eyes of the Lord"  because that's not how I want to look at myself any longer, a little later, you will understand that.  I am good enough!  And I am BEAUTIFUL!  Those are the three main things we will focus on today.

Psalm 139:14 says:  "I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfullly made.  Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well."

Take a moment to really chew on this verse please.  And then think of things you can relate it to.  Those beautiful flowers on your dining room table, didn't the Lord make those also?  And aren't they just absolutely georgeous?  Yes they are!  God made them and he made you!  He made you perfect!  He made you beautiful!  You are uniquely you because God wanted it that way!  You are you!  You do not have to try to be someone you are not.  These are all things I am learning.  I know I have a very long way to go, but I am working one negative Nancy at a time.

Now when we have those moments when we feel that we are just not good enough, I encourage you to go to the Lord.  One way we can do this is by getting out our bible, dusting it off, and digging into verses that we know tell us otherwise.  When I don't feel good enough, I try to remember this verse and say it over and over in my mind.  "For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them."  Ephesians 2:10.  Breaking it down and chewing on it, in a nutshell, He made me, perfectly in his image, I AM ENOUGH!  That's all I need to be.  All I need to be is enough for God.  I have to accept that I will make mistakes, and that the Lord forgives me for those mistakes.

1 Peter 3:3-4 says:  "Do not let your adorning be external-- the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelery, or the clothing you wear-- but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God's sight is very precious.  When I look at this, it really speaks to me.  I always have tried to fit in, I have always felt like I didn't belong, and I have struggled with a very low self esteem.  It didn't help what I went through as a child, but now that I'm an adult, and have been, its' time that I accept that the lies I was told as a child and most of my adult life just are not true.  I don't need to have the latest fashions to be beautiful.  The Lord doesn't look at the outside, he looks at my heart.  Bitterness is ugly, and I pray that I can overcome the bitterness that has lately taken root in my spiritman (so to speak).  The Lord will help me, if I let him.

So my challenge is to LET IT GO!  Yep, I went there, just like Elsa sings in Frozen, it's time we let go of our negeativity and allow God to work in us.

House hunting

Because we are moving so far away, the house hunting for us this time has been very challenging.  It may seem like we can just go online find a place, pay the required move in and we would be good to go right?  Nope.

We found a list of homes we liked that were all in our budget, gave the addresses to Roy and Carol.  They went and looked at them.  Most of them were not doable.  The one that Ryan and I both loved they said just simply wouldn't work.  The condo we liked they didn't think would work with us having the girls and it being upstairs, so we are back to the drawing board.

There are a few that are still contenders, but back to looking for houses I go.  I sure hope we find something soon.  That's the issue with having a deadline.

On a positive note, Patrick brought me boxes today, so tomorrow I get a day full of starting to pack up things we aren't using.  It's really going to put into perspective that we are moving.  I think I'll start in the office and work from there.

One thing we have learned in this whole process is that it really does take everyone to make it happen.  We are happy that we allowed the girls to have their input into the move, and I am sure they will love helping pack and unpack too, but most of all we are happy that we have a support system that will help us with finding the right place on the other side.  We can't wait until the move is over, we are settled into the new home, new state, new routines and just get to enjoy where we are.

Happy New Year!

Hello out there!  I know I'm a week late, but we wanted to wish you a happy new year!  

We have lots going on and will try to keep you all updated more, but here's the jest of it:

The Cox's are moving AGAIN!  This time, we are headed to the mountains!  We are relocating to North Carolina.  We really feel this is the best move for our family.  While I am in college, we feel that because I am taking online courses, the best move for us is to go to a state that we can all be together more often.  With Ryan's work schedule, he can be in North Carolina more often (usually) than he is here in Florida.  With all of that said, and having taken 6 months to pray over this and discuss the pros and cons between the four of us, we made the decision to go.  

In no way was the decision an easy one, and I'm sure that some people will not be happy that we are leaving our beloved state, but we really need those people to understand that we are not doing this because we want to hurt anyone, we are doing it to better our future, to better the future for our children.  We feel the Lord has been guiding us north for a while, and He chose to reveal our next location to us this past summer.  We fought him on it.  We were like Jonah and the whale.  We didn't want to do what the Lord wanted us to do, but we have come to realize, like Jonah, when the Lord says do something, it will happen.  

So, what does this mean?  It means that I will continue my Associate's Degree via the internet, just like I am doing here in Florida.  It means that the girls will have to change school's, but they will be going into a much better school district on the other side of the move.  It means we have all of the normal relocating things to do, but most of all it means that we will be growing together again as a family.  Re-learning how to communicate effectively with each other, learning how to love one another locally rather than across the miles.  It means more quality time for each of us to have with each other.  

This move really is a time of newness, refreshing, and learning to lean on the Lord.  While we are excited to move, we know there will be challenges to overcome and we know the Lord will provide.  We pray that all of our closest friends and family will support our decision to move to another state. We love you and will miss you more than you know.  

Associate's Degree Update

This is crazy!  I can't believe that I am almost 1/2 way done with my degree already!  I am in week 8 of 11 in the 3rd term!  One more term and I'll be at my 1/2 way point.  So far the classes I have taken have been:

Health Information Law and Ethics
Medical Terminology
A & P (had another name can't remember it right now)
Pathophysiology
Anatomy and Pharmacology
Computer Applications and Business Systems Concepts

Currently taking:
Career Development
Icd-10-cm Coding
Health Insurance & Billing

Crazy!  And I've gotten all A's except 1 class so far!  Made the Deans list last term with straight A's and a GPA of 3.73.  Working very hard to keep these grades up as high as possible.

So for thanksgiving, I'm praying I can get all caught up on my homework that is due tomorrow and then knock out all of next weeks work in the first 2 days of the week so that I can enjoy the holiday with my family.

Back to work for me just wanted to update my little group of followers.

It's happening too fast!

Yep, my little girl is growing up too fast!  Just the other day, Kenzie asked me about her 5th grade graduation!  I just can't believe how fast she's growing up!  Before we know it, she will be the one in college!  She's wanting to plan what she's gonna wear for her graduation.  I just can't get over how grown up she's becomming.

Madison on the other hand wants nothing to do with growing up at all!  She's happy being the baby.  But, being that she's 8 years old, not 8 months old, it's time she learns that it's time to become "Daddy's big girl".  Time for changes!

Ryan is pretty much status quo.  He's not happy with the snow and freezing weather in Northern Indiana right now.  (He got lucky enough to get to work up there just as the storms were starting to come through)

And I have begun the job search.  I'm starting to apply for any positions that will put my foot in the door so that when I graduate and sit for the RHIT Exam I can then transfer quicker into coding.  Wow!  This has gone so much faster than I thought it would!

Value

I wasn't planning on making another post so soon.  God has other things in his plan.  When he speaks, I listen.  So here's what happened:

I finished the last post, got my homework done, pureed pumpkin to take to a friend tomorrow, got the kids showered and in bed.  I laid in there watching The Bible on netflix via my tablet.  I just couldn't quite get relaxed into it tonight.  So with sleeping children in the house, I went in for a relaxing hot bath.  Normally this will calm me right?  Well, as I lay there in the hot water, conditioner in my hair, I heard these words, "YOU are more PRECIOUS than RUBIES"  and I knew that the Lord was telling me the truth for my next lie! 

Lie #2:  I am an unlovable, worthless person. 

TRUTH:  Proverbs 3: 15-- She is more precious than jewels and nothing you desire can compare with her. 

Proverbs 31:10-- An excellent wife who can find?  She is FAR more precious than jewels. 

1 Peter 1: 7-- so that the tested genuineness of your faith-- more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire-- may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. 

For this one I needed to break down more than one word, really for myself, because I was interested in the hebrew for each word. 

Precious means of great value, not to be wasted or treated carelessly. 

The hebrew word is yaqar.  It means to be precious, prized, appraised, costly valued. 

jewel-- a precious stone, typically a single crystal or a piece of a hard lustrous or translucent mineral cut into shape with flat facets or smoothed and polished for use as an ornament. 

the hebrew word heder is a masculine noun meaning jewel, an ornament, adornment splendor.

To prove this was a lie, the Lord was telling me that I am more precious than jewels.  I am an ornament, I am precious.  I am of great value.  I am not to be wasted.  I am not to be treated carelessly.  I am prized.  I am appraised.  I am of costly value.  Wow how humbling is that?  When you are feeling down on yourself, feeling worthless, remember that to God you are of GREAT value.  You are the love of HIS life.  You were so valuable that he gave you a job to do.  He sent you to earth with a purpose to fill.  You are valuable! 

This was so very humbling for me because for years I have believed the lie from the enemy that I am worthless. This I can say with authority in Jesus Christ is a lie!  It is not true.  Each and every one of us are made unique.  God made us unique to fulfill a purpose and if we were not valuable He wouldn't have called us for the purpose he has called upon us to fulfill.  The Lord has a plan for my life just like he has a plan for yours. 

Lord,
I come to you tonight humbly thanking you for speaking so clearly to me tonight.  Father, I know that I am valuable.  I am precious.  I am like a ruby.  I should be shined and showed off not thrown in the closet and hidden.  I am yours Lord!  Mold me and make me like the refiner refines gold.  Like the potter works clay.  Thank you Lord for your blessings.  I pray now for anyone who may see this tonight, tomorrow, years down the road.  I pray that you would bring this posting to them when they are in their darkest hour.  I pray that it would speak to them just like you spoke to me.  I am a daughter of the King!  I am a precious princess.  Thank you Jesus! 

Amen.

Who am I???

This is a question I have been asking since as far back as I can remember.  I never really understood who I was.  I never really took a stand for who I was.  Never really said this is me take it or leave it.  I more of just kind of melted into the crowd.  Did what others deemed acceptable not what I deemed acceptable.  Over the last few years, this just continued on a downward spiral.  I allowed others to dictate who I should be.  This is not what I wanted in my life. 

After years of this abusive behavior I had decided that I needed to reach out to a friend.  I did this a few weeks ago while she was on a mission trip.  I was too embarrassed by the fact that I needed help that I couldn't even find the bravery to go ahead and talk to her while she was here.  I had to cop out and wait til she was gone.  I know, it's the looser's way out right?  NOPE!  That's a lie that the enemy wants me to believe, well, let me tell you, NO MORE! 

After meeting for coffee and having a long discussion, she asked me to buy a book.  It's called "The Search For Significance"  by Robert S. McGee.  So I went home and purchased it.  I was actually excited about getting this book.  I didn't know why, but I knew I needed this book.  So, our plan is to go through week by week and do one chapter a week.  In addition to my regular school work, I will be having "homework" to work on with this book.  I will be taking the lies of the enemy and pairing them with a truth from the Lord from the bible.  And further, I will take the main point of that truth, look up the meaning in english, then look it up in the hebrew and really dig in to learn how that truth applies to my life and why that lie is a lie.  So, as I go on this journey, I want to share some of those truths with you. 

Lie #1:  God doesn't reallyl care about me.  Really, now, enemy, you expect me to believe that?  Come on!  TRUTH:  For God so LOVED the world that he gave his only son, that who so ever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.  John 3:16.  This verse has true meaning for me.  First of all, it was the first verse Pastor Jake ever had me memorize.  He knew way back then that I, as a 9 year old, needed to know that I am loved.  When I have nothing else, I have the LOVE of the Lord. 

So, what does love mean?  The dictionary defines love as an intense feeling of deep affection.  So, I give you this, in the world, we see love in the eyes of newlyweds.  Children toward their parents and their parents toward their children.  We see it in the form of gifts, hugs, kisses, and words of affection.  But what does LOVE really mean?  For this I went looking for the hebrew word for love.  I found that ahavah is the hebrew word for love.  In hebrew it is defined as a feminine noun describing the love of husband toward wife, God's love for his people and deep abiding friendship.  See, the bible points love in numerous ways, but my favorite to really dig into is Ephesians 5:25.  "Husbands, love your wives, as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her,"  here we learn just how deeply Christ's love for us is.  See, WE are the church.  CHRIST LOVED US THAT MUCH!  wow!  How humbling is that?  Christ calls our husbands to love us just as he loves the church.  Holy moly that's a lot of love going on!  And to think that Christ is God.  God is Christ.  They are one in the same.  Christ loves the church, I am the church, therefore he loves me!  

Reminds me of a song, Jesus loves me this I know BECAUSE THE BIBLE TELLS ME SO!  Now, there will be times when the enemy wants me to think that Jesus Christ doesn't love me, but you wanna know what, NO I WILL NOT ACCEPT THAT LIE!  

For other verses you can look up please see:  Ephesians 2:4-5, Zephaniah 3:127, Romans 5:8, 1 Peter 5:6-7, Psalm 86a;15, and Romans 8:37-39

It is my prayer that through learning about the lies the enemy is telling me that I can help someone else who is also hearing those same lies.  Opening up to all of you is hard, but I know that the Lord needs to reach someone.  I wasn't going to post any of this online, but then I heard a still small voice saying that someone needed what I had learned.  I pray that whomever it is sees this or is directed to it, and that that person comes to know just how much the Lord loves them.  

Love to you all, 
Dawnie

Lots of lessons

Over the last month and a half or so, there have been many lessons.  One main one is that it sucks to be sick!  Yep, I've been very sick with allergies, sinuses, and a cold.  Put it all together for a recipe of nasty stew that results in migranes so bad that I can't wear my glasses because the frames put too much pressure on my sinuses which in turn make the headache worse.  Yep, I'm just a big ole mess! 

In the mean time, I've lost track of how much I haven't blogged, but I've finished my 2nd term with college.  I can't wait to see what my GPA is now that I finished this term with straight A's! 

The girls are back in school and so we are getting into a routine of Chores, Dinner, Homework, Baths and Bed.  It's been a struggle because our tweenager has decided she doesn't have to listen to parentals at all, that she knows it all.  One day my sweet, one day! 

Then there are the lessons coming from God himself.  Wow!  That's about all I can say there! 

Then top it all off with an amazing month with Thirty-One and you have for a very crazy month! 

I never realized....

As a mom, and wife, we have always kind of split the chores, but since our roommates are no longer living with us, it's just Ryan, Kenzie, Maddie and myself.  This is a blessing for all of us.  We have more space, but we miss the dog.  We have more time with the girls it seems, but we miss our friends too.  With all that said, I never realized how much work it is on a huge property.  Right now we are renting a 3 bedroom on a lake.  We have 4.56 acres and about 2.5 of that is in a lake, so that leaves me with about 1.5 to take care of plus the normal housewife work inside the house.  This past week has been a week of spring cleaning.  I started and I still am not finished because in the evenings, when it cools off enough, I have to go outside and mow.  I've had to chunk off parts of the grass an hour at a time.  I can't tolerate mowing during the heat of the day or I would have it done all on one day.  So I work on my school work, taking care of my girls, normal housework, spring cleaning, packing away things we don't use on a regular basis, and yardwork, gardening, etc.  To top all of this off, I've had quite the week with needing to have a tree groomed to keep my neighbor happy.  Yes, I have one of those types of neighbors who complains about EVERYTHING.

With all this said, I've been doing pretty good with getting things done.  I'm about to start my school work for the week, then some housework, and end the day with a little more mowing.  While it sounds boring, I can assure you my life has been anything but!

Now on to the kiddies:

This year Kenzie will be starting 5th grade!  I can't believe that it's her last year in elementary school.  It seems like only yesterday she started preschool with Ms. Barnes.  And now she's about to have her last day of elementary.  I don't know if I'm ready to start Middle School with her next year!  It's crazy!  I just want to place an anvil on her head and make her stop growing up!

While her sister is going to 5th Grade, Maddie is going into 2nd.  I can't wait to see what this year has for her.  She's grown so much this past year and I can't wait to see what she learns.

With all that said, I am planning on volunteering in both of their classes this year.  I'll take one day a week and spend an hour or so each day in each class.  I've already gotten the volunteer application in with the school system.  Kenzie will be joining the chorus again.  Not sure about recorder club, but chorus for sure.  And I am going to try and see if there's a sport we can get them in.  They tried cheer and while they loved it, I wasn't happy with the way they were treated by coaches and coordinators.  Since it was their first year, they were treated very poorly.  They both have asked about soccer.  I may just see what I can do to get them into a soccer league.

Before I go, I have a verse for you:

"For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord."  Romans 6:23

Hooker Falls

 Such a beautiful Waterfall!  And it was the girl's first time swimming in natural waters that were not the sandy beaches of Florida.  They loved it!

 We had a ton of fun at Jump Off Rock!  Lots of pics to remember our trip came from this location.  

 This has got to be my favorite pic!  While this was not the shot I was trying to get, I wanted both girls to give daddy a kiss on the cheek, Madison really showed her personality while Kenzie kissed her daddy!  I think I need to get this one framed for sure!

 Mackenzie went for a short hike with her daddy, and I was able to get a few pics off the beaten path with them.  This was a great thing because as you see, I don't have a lot of current pics of the family so I am happy to have this opportunity.  

 Look at the view behind these two!  Amazing!  

 Love when they play peek a boo around trees for me!  

 Yai Yai's girls!

And the newest pic of me and Ryan.  I have to admit, it is one of the best we have done in a long time!  Thank you Yai Yai for taking it for us.  

Asheville-- Charlotte's Web Play

 One day, we took the girls to Asheville.  They loved it!  We started the day by eating at the "Soda Fountain".  We had a blast!  The girls loved the 50's inspired decor and that it was inside a building that houses local artists work.

 We then headed to the play.  They got to see Charlotte's Web.  While we didn't get to all sit together for this, it was really cute!  And now I have a couple of girls who love going to plays!

 How else could a day end in Asheville without a visit to the Chocolate store?  So, that's what we did!  And let me tell you, they had some really yummy treats in there!

Pretty Place

 Our Summer Vacation this year was not really planned out but while Yai Yai and Pappy were in town the last time, they asked us to come up to their condo in North Carolina, so we did.  Ryan and I drove the girls up for a week of beautiful weather, awesome views, and REST!  Above you see the view from Pretty Place.  Below there are a few photo's I took while at Pretty Place.  If you ever get the chance to go, it's beautiful!

 Here, Pappy is sitting at the base of the cross and just looking out at the view!  It was spectacular!

 Here is just the cross.  I couldn't get over this being a church errected on top of a mountain.  It was just awesome!

And this too made me want to really thank God for the beauty he gives us.  The reflection in Pappy's sunglasses was pretty cool!