As I continue reading "The Search For Significance" by Robert S. McGee, I am finding that every time I sit down to read a little bit of it, something really sticks out at me and I feel the need to write it down, hilight it, chew on it, etc. Today I want to share a few things that I not only read in the book, but some thoughts that have come to mind, as well as something that was posted on one of my pastor's facebook profiles.
First, know that God loves you, yes you! So much that he sent his only son to die for you on the cross! He loves us that much! Wow isn't that crazy? Nope, it's how God works. He created you in his image and he wants you to be you, not someone else.
So, in the book, I have learned some of the bad habits that I have had a history of doing. Some of those things stemmed from my childhood. I came from a bad situation, and one day I will open up and post my testimony, but that is another post for another day. What I want to touch on today is that the things that happen in our childhood can, and do carry over into adulthood. I am living proof of that. Due to my childhood, I never felt like I belonged, I always felt like I wasn't good enough, I have very low self esteem. The list goes on.
What this book is teaching me is that I am made perfect. No, I will not say "in the eyes of the Lord" because that's not how I want to look at myself any longer, a little later, you will understand that. I am good enough! And I am BEAUTIFUL! Those are the three main things we will focus on today.
Psalm 139:14 says: "I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfullly made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well."
Take a moment to really chew on this verse please. And then think of things you can relate it to. Those beautiful flowers on your dining room table, didn't the Lord make those also? And aren't they just absolutely georgeous? Yes they are! God made them and he made you! He made you perfect! He made you beautiful! You are uniquely you because God wanted it that way! You are you! You do not have to try to be someone you are not. These are all things I am learning. I know I have a very long way to go, but I am working one negative Nancy at a time.
Now when we have those moments when we feel that we are just not good enough, I encourage you to go to the Lord. One way we can do this is by getting out our bible, dusting it off, and digging into verses that we know tell us otherwise. When I don't feel good enough, I try to remember this verse and say it over and over in my mind. "For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them." Ephesians 2:10. Breaking it down and chewing on it, in a nutshell, He made me, perfectly in his image, I AM ENOUGH! That's all I need to be. All I need to be is enough for God. I have to accept that I will make mistakes, and that the Lord forgives me for those mistakes.
1 Peter 3:3-4 says: "Do not let your adorning be external-- the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelery, or the clothing you wear-- but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God's sight is very precious. When I look at this, it really speaks to me. I always have tried to fit in, I have always felt like I didn't belong, and I have struggled with a very low self esteem. It didn't help what I went through as a child, but now that I'm an adult, and have been, its' time that I accept that the lies I was told as a child and most of my adult life just are not true. I don't need to have the latest fashions to be beautiful. The Lord doesn't look at the outside, he looks at my heart. Bitterness is ugly, and I pray that I can overcome the bitterness that has lately taken root in my spiritman (so to speak). The Lord will help me, if I let him.
So my challenge is to LET IT GO! Yep, I went there, just like Elsa sings in Frozen, it's time we let go of our negeativity and allow God to work in us.