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Saturday, April 30, 2011


Here lately, I have been getting into music again :) This song is one that got me through a very depressed childhood! I can't begin to tell you the number of times I cried myself to sleep listening to this song. I hope you enjoy the words. For the music to accompany it, go to you tube and look for Mariah Carey Hero.

There's a hero If you look inside your heart You don't have to be afraid Of what you are There's an answer If you reach into your soul And the sorrow that you know Will melt away

And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you

It's a long road When you face the world alone No one reaches out a hand For you to hold You can find love If you search within yourself And the emptiness you felt Will disappear

And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you

Lord knows Dreams are hard to follow But don't let anyone Tear them away Hold on There will be tomorrow In time You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you

Loads of love to you all!!!

Thursday, April 28, 2011

a couple more favorite pics from easter...

I love that my girls are so very photogenic! And they are usually pretty good when I ask them to pose. Maddie even put up with me adjusting her!!! Here, I have adjusted the light as it wasn't the best photo, but when I adjusted the light and removed ALL saturation, it turned out pretty good.
The girls love yaya's Magnolia tree, so I took advantage of it. I didn't like it in color, but it looks really nice in black and white! I can't wait to get these printed!

And now for the regular check in. Ryan is working 12 hours today. It's nice for him to get the long hours! Maddie is not really doing anything different... Just hanging out. Skye is being very quiet today.... Kenzie wasn't having a very happy morning but I am hoping that will change by the time she gets off of the bus. And I am running around this Condo like a chicken with my head cut off! I have company coming over this weekend, so wanted to get some regular chores out of the way so we can just enjoy our time with Deb. She is bringing the girls' bikes back to us. (i don't know if i mentioned that the bike rack broke on our last camping trip so she put the bikes in her truck and took them home with her. she'll bring them tomorrow since she lives about 1hour away and comes to town about every 2 weeks)

And now time to get off this brain sucking machine LOL

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Easter Pictures

Today, I received, by e mail, the easter pictures I took of the girls. Below, you will see them. I have edited them to reflect my personal taste. I am also including a small caption below each of them as is my favorite thing to do. This first photo is of my lil Madison. She had a blast finding eggs that were hidden. They found eggs in bushes, on garden hangers, in trees, under bushes, on the fence, under the hot tub steps... you name it... that's where they were hidden! The had a blast and I was able to just barely capture the moment of Madison finding her first egg. So priceless!
But, before we went out to find eggs, I had the girls pose up for some modeling. Honestly, Maddie wasn't into it, but Mackenzie was. She is such a ham! Here she is laying on the couch in the front room at my mother in law's house. I have applied some spot light to this photo and walah!
Here, I took that same picture of Kenzie and turned it black and white while adding a black vignette to it. I love the way it turned out!!!Madison thought it would be funny to run away from me, but I caught her just in time for a photo! I love it! She is such a cutie! Here I added a white vignette that I have faded around the edges to show a little foggy effect if you will...
And again, Maddie doing what she does best..... See, I have found with her it is best to capture moments while she is in motion. She loves picking flowers, so this was just perfect for a photo!
And lastly, because they recieved a beach ball sprinkler, we put their bathing suits on them and let them play in it. After they were done and wet, I was able to get a picture of them laying in the grass with their shades on! As you can see they both were getting tired of the Mamaratzi by now.

And that's all I have to share with you for now. More to come as I can, but until I get my camera it will be few and far between. I know I will have pics of Maddie's birthday party at the beach, but I don't know what else I'll be able to capture til I get that camera. I did look at 2 different cameras today. They were both digital slr's and I have to say, I love that I can manually zoom in on my target. No, I did not buy one. I am not ready to I am just looking and trying to decide which camera is best for me for now. I'll be sure to share with you all when I do buy one.

Lastly, thank you carol for letting me take the pics on your camera. Thank you Amanda for e mailing them to me. Thank you Stephanie for your input on how to do a few things with these photos.

Monday, April 25, 2011

sunflowers and tomatoes

so, one of the gifts kenzie and maddie got for easter from yaya and pappy was to get little "greenhouses" maddie got sunflowers and kenzie got tomatoes... so guess what's in our kitchen window! can't wait for them to start sprouting and then get big enough to transplant to the patio!

maddie is doing great here lately! she know's that she is about to be five and that she will be going to kindergarten this fall. she is getting really good with her colors and has even started recognizing some letters! i can't wait for her to really get it when she starts school. there has been a lot of contreversy as to why i did not put her in preschool. let me clear this up: the main reason, we didn't have enough money to pay for it. and you will argue that we could have gotten prek for free here in the state of florida. and my rebuttal is this: IF I CANNOT FIND A SCHOOL I LIKE THAN I WILL NOT BE FORCING HER TO GO TO IT. afterall prek is VOLUNTARY not mandatory! my take on the whole thing is this, there are MANY kids whose parents can't afford preschool and they do just fine! i have a friend whose son is in 3rd grade this year... he didn't go to preschool yet, he is in the top of his class even after having speech issues! so please, do me a favor and don't judge me because i didn't send her to preschool.

kenzie is struggling a little in math, but we are working on it with her. this week she has been working on counting money. she gets confused, but we are getting better with it. other than that, she is still in the self contained classroom and loving her teacher...

ryan is status quo other than he has a meeting with a prospective new job tomorrow... prayers would be great as he is wanting to get out of the place he works at now...

i am just hanging out til the day i go for my test and after that happens, i'll update you...

there will be very few pictures uploaded until i get my camera as my sony is broken.... i'll get that done as soon as i can... (i am hoping that i will be able to get it the first month that i go back to work). more updates later :)

Sunday, April 24, 2011

time for a fill in... lol

after that last post, we had our spring break. we took the kids camping for the first time in a tent. they loved it! the only downfall was that my camera got knocked off of the picnic table and covered in sand... it is ruined! i called the camera shop and asked about getting it fixed... it will cost more to fix it than it would to just buy a new camera... so what is momma going to do? UPGRADE! it may take me a little extra time to get my new camera because I have decided to upgrade to a digital slr camera. some may ask why I feel this necessary... well see below:

* my other camera was good, but i want to be able to start doing the manual settings on the slr type cameras.
* i want to be able to switch the lenses out as desired. no this isn't a necessity, but i really want this!
* i have been asked by some friends over several occasions to do their childrens pictures for them. a slr will make that much more enjoyable for everyone involved. (due to the camera breaking i had to call and cancel on a friend of mine who had asked me to do her wedding pictures!).
* i have always had an interest in photography, and if i can take the classes (which i can at a local camera shop) and then make a little money on top of it, why not do it.

some may think that i am looking into photography as a way of trying to be like them. THAT IS NOT THE CASE! i could care less who thinks they are better than me so much that they think i have to be like them. i am me and if you can't accept that, please, by all means STOP READING MY BLOG!

we are spending easter sunday alone this year. we had to have easter dinner friday night because roy and carol weren't going to be here for easter. it really saddens me that my kids have to have their holidays altered, but i guess that's just the way their life will be. but i do know that for christmas, my children will be speinding it at home FROM NOW ON! in past years we have gone to other places, but my kids don't get to enjoy the fact that they get to play with everything they get because we are at someone else's house. if anyone doesn't like this TUFF STUFF! my kids are going to start being first and if you don't like or don't want us in your life, please don't hesitate to let us know!

i am over it!